Post by HelloJello on Apr 11, 2011 21:39:42 GMT -5
So yeah.. I've got ISS (In School Suspension; it is basically where they stick you in a box-like room for a day, hoping that will somehow better your behavior) tomorrow for leaving school in a rage this afternoon. I've never been in ISS and quite frankly I will more-than-likely enjoy the solitude. :I
I suppose the story as to why I ditched just after lunch might be what you would be wondering about.. well, I am failing my computers class because of missing work. I told my teacher that I was failing because she completely ignored me every time I asked what I needed to make up and how I was supposed to do it (honestly, I really am a bimbo with microsoft word because it is so fucking cluttered and annoying and I cannot find anything in it). Now, see, I have been asking her just before, during, and just after my class for help, since I have no free periods, no free time after school, and she is never in her room during my lunchtime. I have no free time to sit down with her privately and have her help me make up work I have missed. My teacher placed the sole responsibility of my failing on me in some self-righteous bitchy manner, even though she was the person who blatantly ignored me and refused to help me. I think you can reason why I was enraged. I cannot handle people who think they have done nothing wrong, or do not see that they have just done nothing. :I
So, in my fury I went to the high school office to try to cool down and not make somebody eat their teeth. It really was not helping much, and then the principal decided to pester me of why I was there/what I was doing. Problem was, I was literally unable to talk to anyone with having some sort of enraged panic attack. Upon realizing this, I knew it would be a bad idea to stay there, as they would have just pestered me until I exploded. I got up and left the office when the principal looked away, and went all the way down to the elementary wing and exited their doors since they have no security there. I left the school and wandered around town like a hobo for two hours, trying to calm myself. It was peaceful.. although it did not manage to calm me down enough to explain anything to my mum when she asked about my abrupt ditching school. I came home to learn I have ISS.. I guess I pissed somebody off, though I can hardly care. Better broken hearts than broken teeth in this case.
Also, if you were wondering, I do commonly get panic attacks and I also have some anger issues which I only am able to deal with by really bottling it up, hurting others, or hurting myself. It maybe seemed like I overreacted but with anger issues and anxiety that I am convinced I have, being on my period, and having a shitload of stress on me, I figure it made sense. :I
Wooo.. now time to work on birthday gifts and ideas for next week (spring break, why must you bore me so with nothing to do?) Maybe Chris will open up her pool.. that would be nice. I cannot wait much longer. </3
I suppose the story as to why I ditched just after lunch might be what you would be wondering about.. well, I am failing my computers class because of missing work. I told my teacher that I was failing because she completely ignored me every time I asked what I needed to make up and how I was supposed to do it (honestly, I really am a bimbo with microsoft word because it is so fucking cluttered and annoying and I cannot find anything in it). Now, see, I have been asking her just before, during, and just after my class for help, since I have no free periods, no free time after school, and she is never in her room during my lunchtime. I have no free time to sit down with her privately and have her help me make up work I have missed. My teacher placed the sole responsibility of my failing on me in some self-righteous bitchy manner, even though she was the person who blatantly ignored me and refused to help me. I think you can reason why I was enraged. I cannot handle people who think they have done nothing wrong, or do not see that they have just done nothing. :I
So, in my fury I went to the high school office to try to cool down and not make somebody eat their teeth. It really was not helping much, and then the principal decided to pester me of why I was there/what I was doing. Problem was, I was literally unable to talk to anyone with having some sort of enraged panic attack. Upon realizing this, I knew it would be a bad idea to stay there, as they would have just pestered me until I exploded. I got up and left the office when the principal looked away, and went all the way down to the elementary wing and exited their doors since they have no security there. I left the school and wandered around town like a hobo for two hours, trying to calm myself. It was peaceful.. although it did not manage to calm me down enough to explain anything to my mum when she asked about my abrupt ditching school. I came home to learn I have ISS.. I guess I pissed somebody off, though I can hardly care. Better broken hearts than broken teeth in this case.
Also, if you were wondering, I do commonly get panic attacks and I also have some anger issues which I only am able to deal with by really bottling it up, hurting others, or hurting myself. It maybe seemed like I overreacted but with anger issues and anxiety that I am convinced I have, being on my period, and having a shitload of stress on me, I figure it made sense. :I
Wooo.. now time to work on birthday gifts and ideas for next week (spring break, why must you bore me so with nothing to do?) Maybe Chris will open up her pool.. that would be nice. I cannot wait much longer. </3
but still, very.. odd